Not Alone

        They’d gone to bed like they always did. Everything seemed fine. Next morning, she woke.

         He did not- and never would.

         The tears did not come then. Even as the medical team came and confirmed the death, she didn’t let it show. She’d learned that showing it wasn’t the Vulcan way.

         Yet, as condolence messages came in from all over the Union, she felt more and more detached as the day went on. 

         Sarek and Amanda came home. She wouldn’t see them- couldn't see them as the shock and loss built within her.

         Finally, by evening, she knew she had to get away from all the attention. She just started wandering. First, just around Shir’kar. But everywhere she went, memories were there.

         As the sun began to set, she found herself at the Pon Farr Arena with no memory of how she got there. For a long time, she just stood near the fire pit, looking up at the darkening sky. Then she closed her eyes as she began to tremble and the shakes tried to envelop her.

        She fell to her knees and closed her eyes as tears ran down her face.

        Somehow Tam was there with her arms around her, holding her as the crying consumed her. She was vaguely aware of Shev standing nearby as they both gave her their strength and their compassion, proving to her the she was not alone in her grief.